I’m finally back.

After moving out of Nick’s place, I didn’t have access to the Internet for a couple weeks. It’s been a busy couple days, but I finally have time to blog.

I realize my last couple posts have been kind of dark. I’ve been on a bit of a self destructive streak for the last couple month and a half: smoking pot virtually every day, chain smoking, and drinking. Well, this is the end of that. I’ve decided, starting the first of September, that I’m going to stop smoking cigarettes and weed. I’ve said this sort of thing before, but I think stating it publicly will help me stick to it.

I realized that this was necessary over the last couple of days. I got into my car and found that it held the stale reek of cigarette butts from the ashtray. I can’t sing worth shit anymore. When I try, I’m off key and can’t control my range or tonal quality.

The most telling part was today: I sat down at my computer to attempt to write a bit of code for my cousin’s website only to find that I couldn’t remember what I had been doing when I left off far too long ago. Not only that, but I couldn’t even concentrate enough to do any work. The best I could muster was a blank stare at the screen while re-reading what I had started over a month ago.

If I want my business to work, I’m going to have to be able to concentrate without any chemical distractions.

So that does it. I’m going to finish the pack of Parliaments I have, and that’s it. I’m not going to say I’ll never smoke again… I’m far too weak-willed for that. But I’m not going to have another drag or toke for the month of September. After that, I’ll see how I feel and play it by ear.

Wish me luck. It’s going to be difficult living with a chain-smoking pothead.